End of the tunnel, but its more of a grey

A few friends and I rented a car and drove out to the Grampians mountain range to camp for a night last weekend. The weather was awful, mostly rainy, lots of clouds. Dark days and dark feelings, but we had such good chemistry we all managed to keep spirits up.

But the general mood was almost like mourning. For most of us, we're leaving behind short term friendships that in the long term mean little compared to those we cultivated throughout our lives. But they were furious and close friendships fueled by the excitement of the unfamiliar. We've all become comfortable in our situations here, and it's time to drop it and leave. We talked about everyone, and everything. About Australia, and Home. We sat around a campfire with a nice couple from Melboure camping for the long weekend, and talked about how friendships are like a web. I guess networking sites are also a good analogy. Now we all know people from around the world. More than likely that will affect our futures.

It's a difficult mood to live in though. I'm finding it hard to stay anywhere very long, because every conversation starts with "when are you leaving?" and ends with "If I never see you again..." Handshakes, hugs, and kisses aside, it's not easy saying goodbye to everyone all the time. I don't want to leave so soon, but it's time to move on, and I do want to get out of this ugly feeling. I guess we can all just try and look at it from a positive light, focus on the good things we've shared, and forget about good bye's.

I'm infamous for disappearing without a word, I think I'll slip out quietly when it's my turn to go. If there's something someone needed to say, there's always facebook.